Last week I was in New Jersey for several days and then stopped by a local client on the way home from the airport on Friday afternoon. Yesterday and today were filled with a number of errands and things that had to be done because Monday morning, I head to Dallas until Tuesday afternoon. In other words, especially recovering from a cold and being under the weather, I am really tired.
It would have been fine with me if I could have just stayed in all week-end and tried to catch up on rest and relaxation. Truth be know, it’s almost 11:00 pm and I am just sitting down to write, even though I was trying to get this done early this afternoon. I just don’t know where the time went.
Have you ever had a streak like that? You just go and go and go – like the Energizer Bunny, and then you crash and burn. On top of all that, it has been an emotional time for our family. Janet’s medical stuff and Kristin’s divorce proceedings have really taken their toll on all the members of our family. And although Jill is doing well, she and her family live in western Oklahoma and the area has been plagued with tornadoes and radical weather. So we have been worried quite a bit about their safety the past several weeks. Another way of saying that we are all emotionally drained.
And when you are that tired, tempers tend to run a little hot and little annoyances tend to get blown up out of proportion. We feel, as a family, a little out of control and that we are victims of things going on around us. Now I know that sounds a little trite, and I really don’t expect you to throw a pity party for us. But we do feel that Janet’s Rheumatoid Arthritis, Andrew’s attempts to buy a house, Kristin’s emotional drain through the divorce, the weather in OK, and a host of other issues we are dealing with have all come together in a perfect storm of frustration.
But when all this percolates to the surface, it is easy to get stuck in the rut of mis-directed anger. You know what I mean, I think….. you are mad about something beyond your control and suddenly that issue invades the very fabric of the family. And it’s all I can do to make sure that we stay calm and not try to take matters into our own hands; or get angry with one another.
God is in control. I just wish that sometimes the journey would be easier than it seems to be. And I know that God is never late in delivering His assistance, but sometimes we are really challenged with the time it takes Him to act. Of course, we all want justice for those who have wronged us, as long as it isn’t delivered in our direction.
So what to do with all this? Well, chill out would be a good start. Just take a few steps back and remember that nothing is worth disturbing your peace. I know that seems like it’s too easy, but it’s true. When I can finally talk myself down from being frustrated and angry at things that I can’t control, I find that peace is easier to find. When you are as tired as we are, peace is an important thing.
So rather than ramble on, I think I am going to wind things up here. With peace, I am reminded of Phil 4:4-7, “Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
That’s what I need tonight – rejoicing in the Lord, even though I am too tired to keep my eyes open. My encouragement tonight is to let go and let God guide your steps. My prayer is that when you are so tired you can’t stand it, and you get a little amped up at the world, because you can’t control it, that you will remember that you always have the chance to present your requests to God and let Him control your steps. Grace and God’s peace,